Posts tagged: hapa
A lot of the asks implied that I didn’t know anything about racism or that I had not experienced any form of discrimination because i’m half white, and in their opinion I can “pass”. I just wanted to set the record straight.
YES I’VE BEEN THE VICTIM OF DISCRIMINATION/RACISM IN THE PAST. My visuals are abiguous. Every person that looks at me sees something a little bit different. Some people think i’m full white. Others think i’m full asian. Some people think that i’m hispanic, and still others just look and me and try to guess. I’ve heard everything from Puerto Rican, to Inuit, to Russian. Becuase of this, i’ve been through a lot of shit.
When I around 6, I was beaten by a full grown man because I had “dirty blood”. I’ve been called a spic, and cracker, and a chink, sometimes in the same day. I’ve had people tell their kids not to play with me. I’ve had people straight up ignore my existence. I’ve been followed in stores. I once had a Korean substitute teacher call me things I don’t care to repeat. I’ve heard tons of slurs against both of my parents. I’ve been told that I “don’t belong” in certain places/groups. I’ve been spit on. I’ve had someone tell me to my face that I don’t count as a Korean person because i’m half white. I’ve had customers at my job ask for someone that can speak english, even after talking to me for a couple minutes. (By the by, I speak english fluently, and am pretty much accentless due to my Air Force brat upringing. Just a few slight traces of Australia and Philadelphia, but nothing to lead someone to think I don’t speak english.) I’ve had family members tell me i’m not American because i’m asian. I’ve been a spectacle, and something dirty that should be hidden. I’ve been told to stop “acting asian”, completely discounting the fact that I lived in Korea till I was in elementary school, and that my friends outside of school were almost exclusively asian, and that I was raised by an asian mother. I’ve had both sides of my ethnicity and experiences denied my entire life. And everything that i’ve written is just the tip of the iceberg. I could go on for hours.
If any of you had really read my last post, you would already know the following, but after reading the asks, i’m just going to write it here again. This is the internet. Reading a few pages of someones blog does not mean you know them. So unless you really know them, only say nice/constructive things. No need to say anything nasty, or that could be taken badly, unless you have definite proof they are being an asshole themselves. I’m not a nice person. I’m actually kind of a huge jerk, but even a douche like me know that kind of thing. So all you kind strangers should be much better.